February 2011
6 posts
If life doesn't hurt you, nothing will.
Pain is a strange thing, it’s hard. You can’t choose to get rid of it, it’s always there. Sure, you can try and manage it. You can work on ignoring it, and you can learn to live with it, but whether it’s emotional or psychical you can’t tell yourself to forget it.
Think about it, if that were true and you could just choose to move on and not worry about pain in the slightest, the world would be a...
They say true love hurts, well this could almost...
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It's hard, this sick world.
I can’t really tell I’m awake or not. My eyes are closed. The hands of sinners are upon me. The feeling’s thick. Hard. Heavy. The hands feel so harsh against my skin. Evil. My spine feels weak, and my chest feels poisoned. The feeling of purity is being confused with the feeling of hate. My eyes feel as though water’s going to burst through them. I want to see around me, but I’m too afraid of...
I'm running out of myself.
Here I am again, in a place I finally had accepted a part of my past. A place I never though I’d be a part of again. Here I am in a place that had once gripped me tighter than my skin itself. It’s so familiar, however holds a certain atmosphere of which I’d forgotten. I’d given all myself to you, and out of no where you took it. I miss you already so much, and I don’t...
December 2010
1 post
October 2010
5 posts
They say thoughts - mere thoughts - are alike the...
I sit here, thinking, deeply. I think about life, and death, love and hate, happiness and pain. Things people don’t usually sit there thinking deeply about. I like to think our lifes are planned out, somehow. I don’t know why, but, it makes me feel..better. I like to think, about the future. I plan things over in my head, and act out scenarios, and situations that could occur. It makes...
Words.
Sometimes I like to write. I have no idea what about, and sometimes don’t even know whether or not what I write makes sense. But just to know I have control over something feels..good. To know that I can choose what it’s to say, and how it’s too look. It doesn’t always matter what it says, or shows others, aslong as I know I created it. It feels good to know, that, someone...
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A broken heart, hidden behind a broken lie,...
September 2010
8 posts
It's hard missing someone, it's even harder...
It’s hard, feeling this way. It’s hard not knowing exactly how it is I feel. I miss the way you’d hold me, as we fell asleep on the couch, I miss talking to you from the minute I got home from school, until I fell asleep at night, I miss standing outside at night, and looking at the stars while you’d tell me I was more beautiful then all of them put together, I miss you...
I feel to crowded, in an empty room.
I don’t understand when people say “I feel so alone, even in a crowded room.” I mean obviously it’s because they’re hurting, and they don’t feel as though other people understand, and when you think about it, no one does. Because we’re all so warpped up in thinking about our very own, personal pain, caused by our own problems, that we really don’t...
Alright, so my URL has been changed
to abrokensecret.tumblr.com and my other blog is beautybehindbrokenglass It’s all good guys, they’ve just switched, just remember that :3
I'm sorry I can't be perfect all the time.
I want something, that I don’t want. I love something, that I don’t love. I hate something, that I don’t hate. I don’t know what is real, and I don’t want to anyway.
I cry over something I don’t even care about. I want to die over something I don’t even want.
I’m hurting over something, that doesn’t even hurt me.
Therefore, I’m sorry...
Death is a promise, life is a lie.
Why? I mean, just, why? Why can’t things stay the same? If they managed to be that way in the first place, what changes to make it..fall apart?
Why do peoplw change, all the time? And if one person changes, for a reason, why doesn’t the other? I don’t care about money, or popularity, or even health. All I want, is what I had, and had ruined. It was so perfect. I was so happy....
August 2010
6 posts
What is love?
Everyone says how they’re afraid of it, but I don’t understand why. I mean, sure, i understand that people are hurt that they’ll get hurt, which I get, because I’m afraid of that also. I’m terrified, that if I fall in love that I’ll get hurt, and just end up a mess again. People do crazy things when they’re in love. But, when you think about it, it’s...
Bad memories, are what make the good memories...
Life is getting better, really it is. I miss you, I really do, but my life is better without you. It’s easier, there’s less struggle, it’s happier. Now that you’re really out of my life for good, I’ve realized how much I didn’t need you, and how much damage you were doing, being in it. So thankyou for hurting me, thankyou for leaving me, thankyou for walking...
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April 2010
6 posts
"The hardest part about walking away from you, is...
I’ve given, all my teenage years away to you. I’ve given up friends, family, even my religion just for you to tell me that “We’re not right for eachother.” I’m so sick of you treating me like I have no feelings. All you’ve done is hurt me, and I can’t help but love you, but grow up and act your age. I can only take so much. I did everything for you.
"I'm giving in to easy, and letting go to hard."
She looked at her hands, sweaty and red. He eyes were full of tears and, heart full of hurt. She was out of strength, and couldn’t hold on. She wanted to walk away, wanted to be okay but she couldn’t. She fell to the ground, and looked up to the sky, she screamed with a faint, torcherd laugh and said “This is what suicides for.” in defeat.
"They say bad things happen for a reason, but no...
Here I am, alone again. I had you, I loved you, and I lost you. I finaly had you again, and now I’m loosing you. So many times did I wonder if we were really truly meant for each other, but I always came to the conclusion we were. Now, my heart’s not just breaking but shattering every second I’m not with you. I can’t fight off the thought that I’m not enough now, that...
February 2010
22 posts
"Humans lick too."
If I can’t even feel safe in my own house, where am I going to be safe ? I hear footsteps crawling around the floorboards, I see doors slamming open and shut, and screams calling out to the pain they once held as close to them as I hold the blankets to my skin in protection. When I see the shadow of the lost soul standing right there all I can think of is you. I want to hear your voice,...
"If you loved someone you'd be willing to give up...
“Ofcourse life’s a bitch. If it were a slut it’d be easy.”
"I'm the girl you don't even know."
I have feelings. Everything you say hurts more then I let you realize. I’m not a strong person. I’m a better liar then people know me to be. I hate my family more then I hate anything else. I have a sister who people like better. I have a bad temper and get violent. I’m not as stupid as you all think. I have my ways of getting what I want when I want. I have an obsession with...
" I want a girl, not a body with a complex."
I want something to be mine, just for once. All mine. I’m sick of being copied, or creating ideas only for other people to use. I’m not saying “Ohhh, I’m so popular. Everyone wants to copy me, ‘cause I’m like so cool…” however I’m sick of wanting to do/get something and people saying “Ahh, yeee. Now I think I wanna do/get that.”...
"Love after Love."
The time will come, When, with elation, You will greet yourself arriving, At your own door, in your own mirror, And each will smile at the other’s welcome. And say, sit here. Eat. You will love again the stranger who was yourself. Give wine. Give bread. Give back my heart. To itself, to the stranger who has loved you. All your life, whom you ignored, For another, who knows you by heart. Take...
"If I'd known it'd hurt this much to miss you, I...
I need you like the stars need the sky, the ocean needs the sand, and the chocoholics need their chocolate…
“What ever happend to sex, drugs and rock ‘n’ roll ? Now all we...”
"They say that thoughts can be alike the sun to...
Sometimes I wonder if anything’s really real, I wonder if what I really believe, is really real. Nothing feels it anymore. I’m always seeming so lost in my own thoughts, about decisions and choices and never really noticing what’s going on around me. I know what I want, and I almost know enough about how to get it, but it’s the keeping it safe that scares me. I want a...
“You can always get taught how to become better. But you can never get taught how...”
"You gave me Rainbows, and butterflies."
Remember when, you caught my eye, You gave me rainbows, and butterflies. We did enjoy, our happines, When our love was over, I was such a mess. I smiled at you, and you smiled back, That’s when I knew, there’s no turning back. You said you loved me, and I did to, Now though it’s over, I still love you. You’re in my mind, you’re in my heart, I wish I knew right from...
